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Friday, November 21, 2003

yelvis nevets: i was looking at them
yelvis nevets: and i realised
yelvis nevets: for the first time in mylife, i love people
yelvis nevets: [/gayness]
yelvis nevets: but it was weird
yelvis nevets: it was like
Oringlorin: lol
yelvis nevets: i saw them
Oringlorin: what do you mean?
yelvis nevets: and they were all happy
yelvis nevets: and even though i had no idea who they were
yelvis nevets: it made me happy that they were happy
yelvis nevets: i used to hate people
yelvis nevets: with a passion
yelvis nevets: like, absolutely was horrified and hated them
Oringlorin: lol
yelvis nevets: but then i realised
yelvis nevets: they're all just me
yelvis nevets: going through their lives
yelvis nevets: living and being the best they can perhaps
yelvis nevets: maybe even christians
yelvis nevets: or to-be
Oringlorin: yeah
yelvis nevets: and that's when i realised
Oringlorin: yeah totally
yelvis nevets: that's what rocks about life
yelvis nevets: anyway lol
yelvis nevets: didn't mean to preach
Oringlorin: no i totally know what you mean
Oringlorin: except that i've never "hated" people per se
yelvis nevets: well
Oringlorin: but when i was a little kid
yelvis nevets: i exagerated that
yelvis nevets: [i just thought people sucked and were stupid]
Oringlorin: i was looking at this big picture book at the library
Oringlorin: and there was this picture of this jungle
Oringlorin: and a whole big heap of skulls and bones of people
Oringlorin: like a mass burial, an ancient mass burial
yelvis nevets: a real one??
Oringlorin: or like a slaughter
yelvis nevets: oj
Oringlorin: yeah
Oringlorin: real
yelvis nevets: oh
Oringlorin: and it sort of hit me
yelvis nevets: i thought you meant like, from some recent war thing
Oringlorin: oh, no, like some explorer took a photograph
Oringlorin: or somethine
Oringlorin: something-
Oringlorin: anyways
Oringlorin: it hit me that all these people had lives and loves of their own, each one of them
yelvis nevets: dude!
Oringlorin: and i was like "holy shit!"
yelvis nevets: exactly
yelvis nevets: i don't remember what it was i saw recently
yelvis nevets: it was something to do with war
Oringlorin: only i didn't swear back then.
yelvis nevets: like,
yelvis nevets: i think it was some list of people who'd died
yelvis nevets: just like a statistical list
Oringlorin: oh yeah
yelvis nevets: and i was like
yelvis nevets: these aren't just names
yelvis nevets: oh
yelvis nevets: i remember
yelvis nevets: it was a civil war photo
yelvis nevets: with these bloated guys on it
yelvis nevets: and i had this mental flash of their families
Oringlorin: oh yeah
Oringlorin: yeah
yelvis nevets: recieving word they were dead
yelvis nevets: or may be never even knowing what happened to them
yelvis nevets: and i realised, they weren't just pictures in a book
yelvis nevets: they lived once
yelvis nevets: breathed and ate and thought and felt and dreamed
Oringlorin: yeah, man.
yelvis nevets: that's when is tarted to snap otu of it
Oringlorin: yeah
yelvis nevets: it's a crazy, amazing thought
yelvis nevets: that's really made me appreciate what i have
Oringlorin: yeah totally
yelvis nevets: because maybe someady i'll be a photo too
Oringlorin: and one day you might be there
Oringlorin: dude!
Oringlorin: yeah.
yelvis nevets: totally
yelvis nevets: lol
Oringlorin: lol we're going really deep man.
yelvis nevets: i know man
yelvis nevets: this happens to me late at night ;-)
yelvis nevets: dude
yelvis nevets: we gotta post this
Oringlorin: yeah
Oringlorin: totally.
Oringlorin: this is awesome